If I saw this 3 years ago, I would have gasped. Why raise hell? With scared eyes, why rock the calm waters around me? To attempt any ideas of some type of revolt, I would chicken out, definitely.
But........that, was before fate decided to take me for a spin, and put obstacles in my way.
The challenges of standing on my own, I now reflect upon, was that I actually was a little girl with the 'attitude of a boss' aka, Ms. Bossy. At 8 years old, playing on a hot day, I tried to emulate a favorite female warrior of the 90's, Xena, and wanted to be her so much that I got in trouble at recess. Its fuzzy now, but I just remember trying to show the boys I was tough, to fear us powerful girls. I felt it, however I do not remember the fear of not being strong. I didn't make believe, but I held my jump rope like I was on a mission.
Years later, I was no longer that rough n' tough girl, but mistakes shut my mouth. I was afraid to say how I truly felt. I became the girl that is always quiet........
Always, tsk tsk. Now, which is the most important of all times, is not so true.
Being quiet was part of developing my open mind, I observed often, I listened,
and it led me to want to write my thoughts on paper. But it took awhile for me to see what I write as my own personal gold. It takes facing "hell" to come out even stronger.
The quote above means, in seeing it through my own lens is, if people say you are the quiet one, the weird one, a person who never says anything, or says a lot of things, it could be you who changes this world for the better. Thats what surprises people, when you give people a chance to change their perspective about you. Its not to say to constantly worry about how others see you, but focus on being your own version of "BadAss." You don't have to be a great creator of dance like Psy, who had a dream to reach a wider audience with an empowering and thought provoking message, to change the world.
Live your life,
Have a dream,
then go make it happen.
Mine is to first have a B.A as of this year, so soon enough!
Everything else can fall into place, no worries on that.
"Everything you need is already inside." - Nike' (like Mikey)
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Love, CC
Don't let your mistakes bring you down! Yeah, you've gotta learn from them, but you also gotta be strong! Be awesome and be yourself!
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