Creative Tears

Oh my dear.......just listen. "I am a man with a heavy heart" sings Liam Bailey, cello gliding along the cadences of the words heavy and heart. I'm just in awe!

Ever hear a song that hits you right at the beat of your heart? Does it takes over the rhythms of the thoughts traveling in your mind, making you stop, listen, embrace. Its pure emotion and persuasion and equality of some sort, all at the same time.

                                      "Blind Faith"

                                 By: Liam Bailey with Chase and Status

 Liam's song reminded me of the battle I was facing very recently. I was having difficulties this week writing, writing the most intimate of literary forms, poetry. I kid you not, I felt like my heart was under lockdown. My feelings were not present with me, I felt like I had no heart, but is that even possible?

Many wise ones say, the mind has a lot of power, that it gets in the way, but music has that power to unravel internal feelings....making a wall become the brink of a serene ocean.

Writers block, I can say hurts, its frustrating, but for everyone its different. That day, I was stuck thinking, just thinking. My heart was heavy, and I didn't even know why, going over logical explanations over and over again. I felt defeated that I could not even write a poem, about how I felt, not someone else. 

For two days, I had no words. I found to be creative, hard and judgemental. But, what did I do? I just started to sing. Random lyrics, trying to go as loud as I would allow. I was translating the pain into something else. Breakthroughs don't necessarily have to be catastrophic or epic, it could be the most simple sound, and suddenly your heart feels a lot lighter. I wished for a tomorrow not like that day, and it appeared the next morning. 

I've learned through this mucky time, that heavy hearts don't mean that there is no life. It just means, you have to find a way to open your heart back up. Through personal action, no drinking or smoke of any kind can cure what you need to change. It starts with you dealing with your mind, your past, a person, the source. 

Creativity means many things, but to be creative, I hope, should not be about pressure, but about empowerment of one's ideas and sticking to them, no matter what, and through thick and thin. Before I picked up my pen, I said "I have nothing to write about," then I say the paragraphs above are nothing short of honesty. 

Be easy friends, tomorrow awaits,

CC