When Struggle Strikes

Hi Everyone!

I'm sorry I've been away. Life has changed in the last 2 months, like I'm now taking online classes, and oh, I got into design school! :)

So, this is just a little note to say Thank You, to you my readers who have read my blogs and who support blogging in general, because it is a great medium to express yourself. Anyone interested in blogging should definitely go for it. As a result, my perception has grown and transformed through writing here.

As far as going for my dreams, its a tough road I am traveling on right now. I have faced my parents judgement, disappointment in not pursuing my Masters, and looking at how much my dream is going to cost me. Sometimes I wish money and success was not so forefront in thinking about happiness, however I know we all have to eat and live somewhere. But, the most profound realization I have come to find has been that, just talking about what I want to do gets me emotional because I sure do know I can accomplish so much more than what I have been subjected to. Put into a box by other people that I  should be this because I chose this degree and whatnot. The most important thing, I had to listen to myself. To understand that I'm facing so much turmoil from everyone else because I decided to change my life, and that changes everything. Its soooo easy to quit, especially doing online classes, they are so tempting to put it off. But no, putting off the one decision that has made me see the fufillment I can have if I give it all I got, priceless.

Yes, I know I will owe money. Yeah, I will have to budget, suffer, crawl on my knees maybe, or rather be at the receiving end of hurtful criticism, but its possible to make it out alive. Its a daily struggle to remember my current situation is not permanent unless I choose to make it this way. I choose. You choose. Don't let your dreams slip away, because people are at the ready to give you their offer, to make you grab this "job" and go, when its not what you want. I'm right along with you if you are feeling like someone is controlling your life and not you. That there is someone you feel you need to prove yourself to, so they can be proud of where you are at. Its very hard, especially if that person is very close. But, the struggle I think has a deep meaning to all the "proving," that we should finally accept where we are at, and where we want to go based on ourselves, no one else, and that this tough time is meant to show us that, because we will learn to do so and become stronger.

It may take time. I'm putting a intention for patience, truthfully. As scared as I am to keep on going, I know this moment of suffering and sacrifice will be worth it, I may not see it now, but it eventually will be rewarding.

Remember this....

"note to self, chase your dreams
 note to self, find your wings
 note to self, seek your truth
 you have nothing left to prove

the road may twist and turn sometimes
but at the bottom line, Hey, LIFE IS GOOD! "

        - India Arie
          Poet, Songstress, Writer, Muscian
          One of my Heroes


Sending strength your way today!
We got this :)

CC